Be Still

His Holy Word says something so simple. Being still. Psalms 46 speaks of God as our refuge. So often I have found myself in verses 5 and 6. There have been so many storms in my life that "God is in the midst of her, she shall not be moved" was easy. It continued to read that " he shall help her and that right early. The heathen raged, the kingdoms were moved: He uttered his voice, the earth melted." Such pleasant words in times of trouble. How they have gotten me through a good bit of things. But some storms continued to rage and I was confused. Utter your voice Lord, just utter it! I would shout from the mountains. My brain racing to nowhere in some futile attempt so solve my life myself. But I was so busy playing God of my life, that I was cutting God from my life. It hadnt dawned on me that there were more verses in the Bible!! After spending so many nights in tears I got to a point where I couldn't move. I had no choice but to be still. I had completely drained myself of all energy.

On the floor I sat, my Bible at hand and opened to Psalms 46. I wanted to read again verses 5 and 6. I wanted to convince myself that if cried hard enough and yelled loud enough, God would utter his voice. My eyes, however, were taken somewhere else... verse 10. Those sweet words broke me down as I realized how out of line I had actually been. Those sweet words read "Arretez et sachez que je suis Dieu. Je suis domine sur les nations, je suis domine sur la terre." Everything fell in line after that. " Be still and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations. I will be exalted among the earth." My eyes opened. Suddenly, I understood what Samuel was trying to explain to Saul in 1 Samuel 15:22. " Voici, l`obéissance vaut mieux que les sacrifices..." I was no better than Saul. I had lived thinking I know I didnt quite do this the way you wanted Lord, but I will fast and pray and all will be well. That was a different reality as verse 22 rings loud. "Behold, obedience is better than sacrifice."

Lord I want to always be in Your will. When I fall Lord, and I know I will fall, pick me up. I have not always obeyed but as I continue on this walk, strengthen me, that your will be done in the manner you have deemed. I will be still more often. I want to hear you always. I know that I cant do that if I am doing all the talking, or always running around. I turn it over to you. Only the Lord can take us through. Lucky for us, He believes in us even when we dont believe in him. I bless your name Father and exalt you above all names.